Answers of vulnerabilities?

अथ चेतत्व्वमिमं धर्म्यं संग्रामं न करिष्यासि ।

ततः स्वधर्मं कीर्तिं च हित्वा पापमवाप्सयसि ।

"If you don't perform religious duty of fighting, you'll lose your reputation as a fighter" - Bhagwat Gita

Lockdown has been a tremendous part of my life. I don't think I have known myself this much in these 21 years.

These four walls and so much free time zone to figure out what to do is a discovery itself. You'll choose what you subconsciously feel like choosing. You'll do it with all your heart, it might be sketching, painting, graphic designs, singing, programming, dancing, writing, reading or believing in yourself. I have been vulnerable my whole life, I never really know what kind of person I am? How often do I react? What are my strengths and my weaknesses? What am I co-dependent with? What makes me thrilled? Where is my hunger? Why do I write? Why do I cry so much? What triggers me? What hurts me? What's my secret belief? So many questions to answer myself. That Luna who's usually had hard times to figure out what is going on within her.

Mood and it's fluctuations, priorities and it's outcomes, emotions and it's values, life and it's worth, every little thing has multiple dimensions. All I have done my entire life was to look at it one way & only believed that way. Where other dimensions were searching for me. We humans are like horses sometimes, focused one way and running for it. It's usually good to stay focused and not get carried away by other factors that don't matter to your goal. But the major question is it the real goal you want? I mean yes vulnerability might be known as getting distracted but, if Arjuna was not vulnerable before the inception of Mahabharata, would he ever get those answers from lord Krishna? Think about it!

People get vulnerable because they have so much to question, to clarify, to find out, to understand. Only wrong step they take usually is to ask the other person who'd barely get what he is going through. There are very few people in this whole world who'll answer your questions. But there are various things that will answer your questions. Various scenarios that will take you to the answer. I am not one of those people who have your answers. I am still the one with the questions. Only difference now is, I know where to go & how to find my answers. It might test all the patience I have but hey, you know what they say "When the going gets tough, tough get going" 

Read that shloka again, where lord Krishna has told Arjuna why should he fight on Mahabharat.

There might be your first answer. 

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